While I was doing laundry & ironing (gotta "look sharp" for those interviews ;-) ... I was contemplating why I don't have "that special someone" in my life currently... Since Maggie and I broke up last summer, I haven't even really been on a date, and I've been putting myself  "out there"... I find it funny that since I resolved all my "shadows" around relationships about 3 years ago it really hasn't improved my "rate" of connection... I'm not shy or needy like I used to be in my 20's, and even my physique is better... more muscular and "manly"...  then i used to at least "hook up" more than i do now... I find it a little odd... I definitely am more "picky" now than then, so I guess thats a big limiting factor, I see most attractive girls with "barbie" mentality, or lotsa unresolved issues, and don't pursue it anymore... where in my 20's I would've "slogged" ahead... always to "disastrous" results... but hey, at least I got to fuck  8-D ... now I just don't wanna "go there"... I could counsel them, but I wouldn't  "cross the line" into relationship territory... And, though Mags defiantly had "her issues"... in a way she was very "pure" (I'm sure she'll hate me saying that, but it's true)... which she was definitely open to  "working" on them, which is an excellent attitude for a 24 year old...

I was reflecting on all this 'cause last Sunday I found out the bartender at Rye who I get along with "famously" & she *definitely* "flirts hard" with me, has a boyfriend... which I pretty much guessed before, but now I *know* for sure (he was there at the bar when I went to have one of her excellent marghareta's), and though I plan to be patient and remain friends (who knows what's gonna happen "there")... at least I now know where I stand currently... I guess I gotta kill the boyfriend... ;-D

Anyway,  I'm open to anyone "fixing me up" with your "conscious" friend, I don't have a physical type per se, but I just 'ave to "find them attractive", and a big part of that to me is how aware they are...

Thank  Krisztina   for the awsome tapestry...

Anyway: his has to be my faviorite Ken Wilber interview yet...


On Critics, Integral Institute, My Recent Writing, and Other Matters of Little Consequence: A Shambhala Interview with Ken Wilber

A big day for blog posting... TWO in ONE DAY!!! waassup with Cain? who knws but I do know I'm gonna get hired soon.. I have 5 companies competing for me currently...  ( as it should be ;-D )
Let me name drop a little... Electronic Arts, VMWare, TAOS, cittio.com, & mongonet.net


'fur sure I'll be employed next week...

There will be virtually nothing left to fish from the seas by the middle of the century if current trends continue, according to a major scientific study.

I'm sure 'yall know that "WE" (as the human race) need to get our "shit together", but here's more info to educate those that are "a little slow" at coming to terms with the fact, that "WE" need to take responsibility for these problems and shift spending away from inane stupidity like the "war" in Iraq and onto creating a "sustainable" economy... Thank you al gore for "an inconvenient truth" Its a good "start" at "popular" appeal.

And,THE best way to do this is through personal/"spiritual" evolvment, and the proper "political" actions will naturally follow... Of course for people at the different developmental levels there are different specific practices that will move them forward, but the one that cuts across them all is meditation... So I'd recommend the "Integral Life Practice Kit" for just about everyone to "bump up their "spiritual" line of development...

OK... So what do you get when you cross a 4 year old HP laptop, Windows Server 2003 R2 (which you can download free, BTW), Fly A Kite OS X, CygWin, & CygNix...

Cain's Crazy computing environment...

I'm trying to come up with a name, for when I put it all together as a one package that anyone can install... Somehow "WinMac'Nix" doesn't seem to roll of the tongue easily... Actually it may get caught in some people's throat... ;-D Anyone have any suggestions? Maybe I should call it GeekOS(tm).   8-P

Hey!!! I just realized I've created the fist TRULY integral computer operating system... Move over Al Gore... This is gonna be much bigger than"inventing the internet"... ;-P

And if anyone wants the instructions for setting this up yourself let me know... basically install them in the sequence listed, and then I'd suggest doing some "start-up" and registry "tuning" afterward, using Ashampoo WinOptimizer Platinum 3. Oh, there are a coupla' "quirks" with the CygWin & CygNix install... uhhh.. You may just wanna do CygNix, It'll make your life easier... I just liked the "shell" CygWin starts, but I could just send you the .bat file for that, oh, and you have to install rxvt....Um... Hmmmmm.... Yea... It should be a package, shouldnt' it?... Just "point an click" boys and girls!!!!! I'll get around to it sometime this winter...

Hey,

I've "recreated" my Napper Tandy set for 'yall who couldn't be there.

There's a new club opening up called the "DownBeat Lounge". It's in Union square across from Ruby Skye, above Biscuts & Blues, the address is 401 Mason, San Francisco, Ca.

I just "hooked up" basically a "trial" spot tomorrow night, from midnight to 12;45am.... If you can make it down, and show you're appreciation, I'm sure I'tll help them decide wither or not to bing me on as a "regular"...

Hope to see you there!!!

Thanks!

Hmmm...

Well none of my job prospects seem to be panning out after "hitting it
hard" for over 2 months... I'm giving it 'till the end of the week, and
Then I'm going up to Port Townsend to hang out with Arhata, and
"regroup"...

Meditating this morning (@ the Friends of the Western Buddhist Order Temple) on certain aspects of the Buddhist "Stages of the Path or "Lamram" teachings  as expounded on by  Geshe Kelsang Gyatso, I feel the title statement best represents my "school" of thought onwhat is currently need in the west to advance our spiritual "training", and this "I" that is known as Cain is to be its founder.

Why ANOTHER spiritual  "tradition"? I mean aren't there ENOUGH already? and of course there are. However, none are integral.

It has been painful for me to sit in the New Kadampa Tradition "General Program" teachings for the past few weeks, and see where other aspects and techniques form other traditions could considerably assist us "westerners" in more quickly and fully understanding the rich teachings of the Tibetan tradition, and to be told by the temple administration that they cannot offer any classes with teachings outside of the New Kadampa Tradition. While I can understand their reasoning, and is probably appropriate in 99.9% of cases. Still, I feel on a certain level it does not serve "the dharma".

If I have a "cure" your current "ales", but you cant take it because I'm not a teacher in your tradition... To me this is much to dogmatic and just makes no sense...

Hence my "School" which of course integrates all aspects of Buddhist teachings, while respecting the traditions they came from.

That's my thought for the morning... look for more on this in upcoming posts...

-C

The Integral Awareness Tradition - Integral Buddhism School Presents:

An outline for fully realizing meditative "states"... and transforming them into "stage" development.

This is what we have discovered as one of the best paths to follow to go from a "novice" to an "expert" in meditation within the Buddhist context...

While following the stages below also be doing "shadow" work, through the practicing the 3... 2...1... process, working with an integral psychotherapist, doing Landmark Education courses, or any other path that help you "own" any aspect of your mind that you've disassociated with.

To start you may want to use the Integral Life Practice Kit which covers 3...2...1, Big Mind, Ken Wilbers AQAL model, and some other "goodies"...

Stage One: Genpo Roshi's "Big Mind" meditation...

    Watch this completely at least 3 times... Then for 3 or more times a week... watch the second half "nondual" aspect until you feel it is a stable realization in your consciousness, and you can "call up" or are abiding in "the master" at any moment of your life... This should take at least 3-6 months...

Here you should read and apply 'Kensho: the Heart of Zen", and generally begin to study/apply the "works" of Arhata Osho, J. Krishnamurti, & Ken Wilber. With Ken's work focus on the IOS  or Integral Life Practice Kit  Mind Module: The AQAL Framework videos & Kosmic Consciousness  audio book at first...  and it will be helpful to watch this video, and keep coming back to it until you have a full "intellectual" understating, and then a full experiential understanding.

Stage Two: Osho's Dynamic Meditation, Chakra Sounds, or any other of Osho's "Active" meditations...

You should start doing these immediately, or at most, within a month or two of starting your "study" of Big Mind...

We recommend focusing primarily on "Dynamic" for the first few months then exploring the others...

Do these for at least 6 months to a year, at least 3 times a week...

Here continue studying the above... now... add Osho's teachings, as well as Sri Aurobindo.

Stage Three: Once you feel a "shift" in your consciousness from doing the active meditations... We recommend finding a Kadampa Temple near you and attending all the "general program" and "foundation program" classes... and experiencing the Tibetan guided meditations that the teachers will take you through...

If there is not one near you contact us for specific instruction...

Here we start with with the sincere study of Mahayana Buddhist teachings in the Tibetan context... We recommend studying  "stages of the path" teachings preferably with a guide... like the New Kadampa Tradition's "Foundation Program" OR at the very least in an extremely sincere self study program. Go through the teachings SLOWLY, only a few pages at a time, and meditate on what you've learned for a couple of days before going on to the next few pages... You may be in a hurry to receive these teachings; however reading it quickly will not serve you or the darmha well... Sometimes going slow is the "fastest" route...

This is a 5 day a week commitment... for 1-99 years...

Stage Four:  At this point you will be well versed enough in meditation to create the "program" that most makes sense for you, and begin teaching others...

Here you probably want to continue on in your study of Tibetan Buddhism focusing on the Vajrayana path... Being involved with the New Kadampa Tradition you should be able to find some opportunities and guides to assist you with this.

This is a 7x24 commitment for the rest of your life...

From 00'-'05 I did most of Arhata's Free Speech Flyers when he was on Venice Beach... From a design standpoint I think this one is the best I've done...

I added the flash video to my page from Brian Eno's 77 Million Paintings website 'cause I really like it, hope you do to...

And Messing around with Arhat's MacBook and Photobooth I came up with a new icon...

;-D

I "led" the Space Cowyboys "UNIMOG" Vehicle From the start of the parade route to the end and recorded with my little recorder... It was fun, but It's taken me months to transfer the raw recording into something I feel begins to be listenable...(using Ableton Live & lots of "plug-ins") hope you enjoy!!!

I've made some updates & changes to the...

Integral Buddhism - Outline for "progressing" in meditation...

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I set up my good friend Arhata Osho with a zaadz page... go over there, send him some love, and become his zaadz friend... he'll like that...

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And I came across this retelling of the Cain and Able story, which I like: http://bpa-cinc.zaadz.com/blog/2006/10/cain_and_abel_revised
I have had my own version in my head for years... which I should probably write down some day too...

1996 A.D. - eyescube - 2006 *Cain* Analouge Remix